Mindless

I sat there,
Trying to hold back the tears i have been dreading to shed ever since i met you. 
Wishing I could just forget all about you,
But at the same time, i was wishing i could be in your arms at that very moment. 
What if you never talk to me again?
Do you know that put me through every possible ounce of pain anyone could ever establish?
I wish I could just go mindless.
Forget every thing you ever said to me. 
I wish I could go back to the day that i met you,
I wish I would have been smart enough to say "I'm not interested".
But no. 
You trapped me in your charm.
Why was i brainless enough to call you back and answer your calls.

I wish I could go mindless.
I wish i could forget everything about you.
But i cant.
You have trapped me in your love.
You smothered me in your charm.
I wish I could get away.
Escape the trance you have put me in.
I don't think that is even possible.
You have pulled me in so deep, I think I am drowning.
Someone please help me.

I just want to go mindless.
I want to run in the daises among the green pastures with your fingers between mine .
I want a smile on my face for once.
I want to look at the scarlet mountains, and wish i was brave enough to climb them.
I wish I could use that bravery to let you go, forget about you.  
I wish everything was fine between us.
Is that even possible?
Will everything ever be fine between us?

Will i ever go mindless of you?
I want to,
But that's not possible.